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today, i set out to revise and get in my head the arabic numerals from 1 to 100…how to write the numerals as well as their spelling…n the ordinal numbers from 1 to 12 as time is told with ordinal numbers…and oh God they even have feminine ordinal numbers and masculine ordinal numbers..since time is sa-ah which is a feminine word, so time will be told with feminine ordinal numbers…interesting huh?
Arabic is a really interesting and beautiful language…and there is alot to learn…
managed to get the numbers done…tomorrow onwards i can revise the others…i need to get everything in place…there is just too many things we have learnt and it is all over the place…time to organize everything in my mind…
i really want to learn this well, pass and move on to msa2 with Huzaima inshaAllah…and under this same mudarris Muddathir…he is reli dedicated and his lessons are always longer…up to an hour longer…lol…
i really hope i can get everything i’ve learnt so far organized in my mind asap so that i can get ready to learn more inshaAllah..
Sights of Haj 2009…
Taken from Slaves of Allah FB page. Click on the thumbnail to view full picture. Worthy to remember that there will be extremely wealthy people from the luxurious of places as well as poor people from the slums in the midst of this crowd..mashaAllah…and you can see for yourself, the Blacks, the Whites, the Indians, the Chinese…and a variety of other races…but it doesn’t matter, we are all Muslims. Allahu Akhbar!
Islam: The Religion Of Truth by Abdur Raheem Green
I just want to suggest the video at the bottom of this post to everybody, Muslims and non-Muslims. Abdur Raheem Green will bring you through a series of contemplation. Of course, everybody has to agree that truth clearly stands apart from falsehood. As a human being blessed with intellect, you cannot say that there is a very thin line between the two. No. There is a clear distinction between truth and falsehood.
I watched the entire video and was extremely moved because it reminds me of Allah swt’s greatness and the simple things in life that many take for granted each day.
Past week, i have been leaving office alittle late and this means i will be just in time to see the sunset skies over Kranji during my train ride back home. MashaAllah, on Monday, the skies were simply breathtaking. My colleague Siti and I were priviledged indeed to take in those sights, really. I was too intrigued to reach out for my handphone camera to snap pictures.
Allahu Akhbar! He is the Creator of such beauty. We see a beautiful painting, artwork or even a graphic and we never fail to enquire, “Wow that’s splendid! Who did that?”. Thus, we acknowledge that a really talented person created it. So, when we see such beauty in nature, should we not ask ourselves the same question?
Abdur Raheem Green also explains other religions which acknowledge a Creator but has contradictions. He also goes on to deny critics who condemn our Prophet Muhammad saw with 3 simple proofs. Although, there are countless more proofs 
If God is perfect, the religion should be perfect and there should be no doubts therein. We should not fool ourselves and force ourselves to believe in something that does not make sense just because our fathers believe in it. You have to agree with me that beliefs can’t be forced. It has to click with your innate nature. And when it clicks, you will be overwhelmed with emotions and would be willing to give up everything that you used to do just to submit to the truth.
Religion should answer your question as to why you are here. It is not a tradition. It is our birth right to find out why we are here. And we should seek to find out the only reason we are here and then set out to fulfill it.
I sure hope that the wrong media portrayal of Islam will not keep you from wanting to find out the truth about Islam.
Islam: The Religion Of Truth
Eid with my noisy, rowdy yet happy family…
Thanks to Allah, He has eased my heart just like i asked Him to. He has helped me to rethink alot of stuff.
My extended family is getting used to me now. Looking back, there was a period of time that i did not share anything with my then close friends nor my extended family. During this period, i stuck with my immediate family, Habib, Yanah and Yanti. To these people, they would have seen the gradual change and it may have been easier to adapt and accept me.
For some reasons also, Habib and Yanah started seeing life in a whole new light too. I can’t believe that Habib comes to meet me now, armed with tasbih and all…rides are complete with only Islamic songs…and what the hell did we used to listen, in max volume with windows wound down. As for Yanah, we were planning to go on “bacardo” outings monthly and even planned a “bacardo” trip to nearby countries. But suddenly, we are just visiting Islamic bookstores =P who cares if you think that’s geeky =P
If i put myself in the shoes of those who only knew me as the hot-headed tomboy with hairstyles that change every month…who used to detest even those who plainly asked me to be more ladylike and grow my hair….who used to shut everyone up and explain my “uniqueness”…and more so for those with whom i used to do nonsense with :’-(….suddenly, suddenly, they see this very strange person…will they be able to connect with me like they used to?
It was just plain awkward. I did not share anything and did not explain nor tell any stories. Because, to me, nothing happened overnight…i spent several nights and days in deep reflection and remorse, struggled to stay away from stuff that i got addicted to, grew ashamed of my old self, read and listened to people on the straight path, many new people came into my life to preach…and everything suddenly seemed to make sense and i just could not deny anything they were saying…usually, i’d find some “smart-ass” answers to counter them, but suddenly i started to feel ashamed as i found truth in what the righteous ones had to tell me…i couldn’t reject anything….nothing….my heart realised La ilaha IllAllah and now it beats La ilaha IllAllah…
Maybe, the “sudden” change might have lead to awkwardness and suspicion. To make matters worst, i decided to keep mum as to “why?”. As a result, initially, i had to put up with lots of uncalled for remarks, actions and even avoidance…at times, it hurt but of course i turn to Allah and He heals me right away…
My social circle has also evolved AND halved. But, i trust Allah. Everything happens for a reason. I have realised that lasting peace only lies in feeling the closeness with Allah swt. And i don’t mind losing everything just to feel that.
Today, i had a better gathering. Only that i felt really scared and my mind felt hazy with the noise from the TV. I had to condone that. Felt like my soul was in maximum danger :’-( But i somehow managed the situation. Whenever the TV was switched off, Alhamdulillah that’s when my heart started feeling at ease…
that reminds me…last night i was showing my parents some Arabic words on my laptop…i don’t know if my dad was listening to what i was saying but as i was returning to my room with my laptop, he pointed to a note on my desktop and said, “this is wrong”….the note in my desktop reads, “TV is the greatest and nearest devil” lol
I just made faces and walked away heehee…i mean…i’m not yet ready to re-think this part…i just find the programmes on TV, a complete disrespect to Allah swt. complete disrespect. and how can i enjoy that? it only makes me want to cry…that’s all it does…makes my heart feel really heavy…that’s all it does…so i guess, my heart’s rejecting it right now.
i need time to rethink. and if i have to be flexible or not, Allah knows best and He will guide me to that which is right…
and, i see subtle changes in some of my relatives. i will make doa to Allah to open their spiritual eyes too.. and, no matter what, i will not cut off my blood ties. they still care for me so much and i am indeed blessed to have them…and i trust that they will always be there, through thick and thin because they have always BEEN THERE…i cannot forget that.
anyway, i briefly watched the Haj coverage…mashaAllah…it was raining so heavily…and still the pilgrims, slaves of Allah..stuck together shoulder to shoulder, displaying such solidarity, performing tawaf…really moved me..if only we Muslims can be that united daily, all our problems will be solved…
Allahu Akhbar!
*me still only feel 5% Muslim. i hope and pray that Allah swt would not take my life away too soon so that i can learn and hasten my deeds to prepare for aakhirah.*
عيد مبارك
Eid Mubarak to all Muslims! TaqabbalAllahu Minna wa Minkum…
Labbayk Allah, Humma Labbayk
It’s the journey for Allah that I wanna make
Labbayk Allah, Humma Labbayk
It’s the journey for Allah that I wanna make
Bound to the sound when the Hajjis go round
In the place where we face they put their heads to the ground
Bowin’ in submission with conviction of steel
It’s a feeling of peace, I someday hope I can feel
When the month it comes around, it’s called the month Dhul-Hijj
People come from every place on this planet to do it
It’s the Hajj, a journey to the House of Allah
Where over two million different people come from near and from far
By car, by boat, by plane and by the camel
Some brothers even do it by foot just with a sandle
But when they arrive and then the city just glows
You’ll understand the reasoning why everyone goes
Seeking forgiveness from Allah, in every step that they take
“Here I am for my Creator”, Ya they cry out “Labbayk”
Labbayk Allah, Humma Labbayk
It’s the journey for Allah that I wanna make
Labbayk Allah, Humma Labbayk
It’s the journey for Allah that I wanna make
Yo I’m looking forward to the trip to Hajj
Going’ to Makkah and Madinah with the entourage
Yo! I’m looking forward to the trip to Hajj
Comin’ back like as a Hajji like Malik-al-Shabbaz
From Madinah to Musdalifah, sights that you never saw
Best of all the trips, ain’t nothing less that I will settle for
Don the lhram, where we all put on white
Putting on the white sheets so that we all look alike
Doing Tawaf around the Kaa’bah kissin’ the Black Stone if you can
But you haven’t done nothing ’till you’ve done Zam-Zam
Gettin’ on that bus so you can get to Arafat
Getting all those pebbles used to stone the Jamarat
Pacing back and forth between the Safa and the Marwah
Commemorating what was done for Ishmael by Hagar
Sacrifice a lamb then go ahead and shave your head
Joining in the feasting after all the prayers are said
Now nothing beats this trip not even Taj Mahal
Cause there’s Africans, Indonesians from Egypt and all
I’m looking forward to this trip I someday hope I can make
“Here I am for my Creator” when I cry out “Labbayk”
Labbayk Allah, Humma Labbayk
It’s the journey for Allah that I wanna make
Labbayk Allah, Humma Labbayk
It’s the journey for Allah that I wanna make
[above are the lyrics to Labbayk Allah by Native Deen]
Protected: salam (peace)
Yaum al-Arafah (tomorrow)
It is very important to note that there is no day better in the sight of Allah than the Day of `Arafah. On this day Allah descends to the nearest heaven, and He is proud of His slaves on the earth and says to those in heaven, “Look at My servants. They have come from far and near, with hair disheveled and faces covered with dust, to seek My mercy, even though they have not seen My chastisement.”
[extracted from: http://www.islamonline.net/servlet/Satellite?cid=1124781357993&pagename=IslamOnline-English-Hajj_Umra/HajjE/HajjE]
It is not Sunnah for pilgrims to fast on the Day of `Arafah so that they will be strong enough to devote themselves to worship and supplicating. However, it is Sunnah for non-pilgrims to fast on that day.
[extracted from: http://www.islamonline.net/servlet/Satellite?cid=1124781357941&pagename=IslamOnline-English-Hajj_Umra%2FHajjE%2FHajjE]
Peace in Troubled Times by Shaykh Hamza Yusuf
recently, sometimes, i spend entire days watching shaykh hamza’s lectures =P
i hardly talk to my family…i mean, they always meet at the idiot box…that, well, it just doesn’t go well with me…i hope to change this situation in my house, inshaAllah.
that doesn’t mean my parents sit there all day. they pray, they attend religious classes, they take care of our needs, they do what is right but they also watch television. they won’t go astray. they are out of their youth.
i’m just seriously worried abt the susceptible ones who can be easily influenced and brainwashed by what they watch. i see for myself how some just imitate that crap they watch on television. dangerous.
everybody should watch the lecture at the bottom of this post. it is the complete version of the one i posted in the previous post. 9 parts to it. watch all. really. better than watchin the trash idol shows. trash. sick.
i’m not being extremist but i just cannot sit there anymore without being overwhelmed with emotions and it just scares me. it just scares the shit out of me :’-( i can’t believe that i have polluted my mind and heart for 22 damned years with shit from the tv. i can’t believe that i have wasted sooo much of my life being a fool and watching such blardy shows that are in complete contrast to the teachings of Islam. i can’t believe that i had been in such a deep sleep watching all that with no feelings of guilt whatsoever.
i think these videos are old. can’t blame me. i didn’t know who the heck was Shaykh Hamza until Yanti told me like early this year? can’t blame me, i was estranged from the entire Muslim world. i was asleep. deep deep sleep. lol.
even though Shaykh Hamza’s approach has changed since the September 11 attacks, it does not render his past lectures invalid. those were still from the world of knowledge that he has and the feelings that came with it were from his heart. and he still considers himself a dissident and denies critics who accuse him of aligning himself with the US administration. i trust that he is still a dissident. i trust that. it seems to me that now he just wants to cool off the fiery Muslim world in these tough times of all sorts of pollution.
I’m your sinful slave. You’re my loving Lord.
I still have so much to learn…
No matter what i do, Allah still doesn’t turn me away. I go to Him and He helps me right away…
But in return, i still forget, despair and let anger, shaitan, overwhelm me so easily? That’s gross…i’m ashamed of myself…
We read history and always never fail to get goosebumps at our beloved Prophet saw’s patience. And that patience, mashaAllah, was in the face of great overwhelming calamity even.
But, look at us…minor things and we just go crazy :’-( Sick.
I feel so guilty now and i hope Allah swt will forgive me. I should have been patient for the sake of Allah swt if not for anybody else.
I still have so much to work on. First on the list is patience when anger overwhelms. I mean i have been practising it to some degree but i still forget at times :’-( and even that is unacceptable…
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